Black Adder's funny. But seriously, the funnies can actually be outdated.
Closing ceremony today. I am overjoyed. I'm so happy, i cut my hair. Doesn't make sense to you? Neither does it make sense to me. Guess my locks suffered an undignified fate.
Saw those guys fall flat on their faces today. I felt my heart wince and cringe during those moments. At what cost? All for the sake of showmanship, flattery and dignity. Screw all of that. Nothing makes sense in the military anymore, at least not to me. Screw it over and over again. It's all fubar.
The past month working on EBC showed me a couple of things. First of all, if i was ever playing with the thought of signing on, the past two weeks would have convinced me otherwise. It's sad, really. I'm trying to look at everything with objectivity and prudence, lest i fall into the pride of life. But if there's one thing i know, i know the kind of life i do not want. Spoke to a few people who are disappointed with the service. And the one common lament that they stumbled upon is the inability to bring change to the organisation. The other thing i felt more recently is the inertia to step out. Into the so-called working world, that is. Apart from the politics, back-stabbing and what-have-you, i find myself appalled by the long hours, the politeness, the false humility, the need to put on a front to get your job done, the climb, the fall, the desire to impress, the hypocrisy, the race to gain respect, the ugly display of irresponsibility, the failure of meritocracy, the suckers, the cries of the oppressed, the importance of dynamics, the alienation of the different, the condemnation of courage, the deliberate stifling of creativity, the execution without planning, the planning without principles, the self-entertainment, the importance of being earnest, the mockery of belief, the belittling of the little, the trivialisation of values, the insecurity, the mutual disrespect, the distortion of the truth, the veil of deception, the surprise attacks, the irrecognition of those working behind the scenes, the showmen, the search for meaning, the search for satisfaction, the wicked smiles, the silent stares, the blind leading the blind, the bad air in the office, the long hours in front of the computer, the flaming arrows, the good, the bad, and the so very ugly. I haven't seen it all, but it's ugly. This sounds totally childish, but i don't want to grow up. Not so soon. Someone throw me back to school.
You'll never realise how elated i am when i receive a phonecall or message that is not related to work.
Really appreciated Mega-ma's help in helping me to raid the lost ark today. Though the hunt ended without any result, it was anything but fruitless.
"If you can't build a robot, be a robot!" -Abe
God is love, but when you fail to find the balance in the whole reality of it, love becomes god. I think it happened to me.
When all else fades, my soul will dance with you, where the love lasts forever.
Closing ceremony today. I am overjoyed. I'm so happy, i cut my hair. Doesn't make sense to you? Neither does it make sense to me. Guess my locks suffered an undignified fate.
Saw those guys fall flat on their faces today. I felt my heart wince and cringe during those moments. At what cost? All for the sake of showmanship, flattery and dignity. Screw all of that. Nothing makes sense in the military anymore, at least not to me. Screw it over and over again. It's all fubar.
The past month working on EBC showed me a couple of things. First of all, if i was ever playing with the thought of signing on, the past two weeks would have convinced me otherwise. It's sad, really. I'm trying to look at everything with objectivity and prudence, lest i fall into the pride of life. But if there's one thing i know, i know the kind of life i do not want. Spoke to a few people who are disappointed with the service. And the one common lament that they stumbled upon is the inability to bring change to the organisation. The other thing i felt more recently is the inertia to step out. Into the so-called working world, that is. Apart from the politics, back-stabbing and what-have-you, i find myself appalled by the long hours, the politeness, the false humility, the need to put on a front to get your job done, the climb, the fall, the desire to impress, the hypocrisy, the race to gain respect, the ugly display of irresponsibility, the failure of meritocracy, the suckers, the cries of the oppressed, the importance of dynamics, the alienation of the different, the condemnation of courage, the deliberate stifling of creativity, the execution without planning, the planning without principles, the self-entertainment, the importance of being earnest, the mockery of belief, the belittling of the little, the trivialisation of values, the insecurity, the mutual disrespect, the distortion of the truth, the veil of deception, the surprise attacks, the irrecognition of those working behind the scenes, the showmen, the search for meaning, the search for satisfaction, the wicked smiles, the silent stares, the blind leading the blind, the bad air in the office, the long hours in front of the computer, the flaming arrows, the good, the bad, and the so very ugly. I haven't seen it all, but it's ugly. This sounds totally childish, but i don't want to grow up. Not so soon. Someone throw me back to school.
You'll never realise how elated i am when i receive a phonecall or message that is not related to work.
Really appreciated Mega-ma's help in helping me to raid the lost ark today. Though the hunt ended without any result, it was anything but fruitless.
"If you can't build a robot, be a robot!" -Abe
God is love, but when you fail to find the balance in the whole reality of it, love becomes god. I think it happened to me.
When all else fades, my soul will dance with you, where the love lasts forever.
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